Closures
I was out with a group of friends yesterday and I was in a really bad mood, apparently it showed!
One of my friends started talking to me; she seems to have a special gift that she can somehow read people; I don't usually take these talks seriously, coz I don't really believe that anyone can read other people's minds or personalities.
But I was really impressed with the things she has said! I was totally shocked that she could read me that easily! Is it that she is sooo good in that, or am I so easy to be read like an open book.
"You act like you fully trust people; but deep inside you don't, you are too afraid to trust anyone cause you've been through bad experiences." OMG, that is sooo true, although I deny it!I really want to trust people, but she is right, deep inside I can't! But I keep on giving people chances, which makes it harder for me. I don't block people; but yet I don't fully trust them.
"You are lost and indecisive." well I guess that is written on my forehead. I am totally lost, my life is a mess. I've always known what I want to do in my life, I've always been in control of everything. But not anymore, and it's killing me.
"You have a broken heart, but you can't stay this way, you need a CLOSURE. or else you won't ever get married." That was the hardest thing I heard last night! I always act like everything is OK. Whenever I get hurt I just turn the page over and move on; or do I? It seems I never move on, I just put things on the shelf. I might not think of them, but they are still there causing me heartache all the time without realising it.
I was out of words last night, she shocked me with a truth I never wanted to believe. How sad is that! I donno if I'm going to turn over the pages again and again, or will I have the courage to close all the past pages in my life that need to be closed!
~sigh~
8 comments:
habeebti manool.. awal mara ashooof your site! wala yimkin shoftoh wa ma kont 3arfeh ino inti!
ana 3indi this psychic ability to read ppl!
sweeetie inshala u will have closure and you will marry a7san wa7ad fil dinya and you will also regain ur trust in ppl..
wa being indecisive is a quality everyone has.. we all dont know what we want till we lose it
i miss you manool
Hey Dandoon :D actually Im not an active blogger and only few ppl knows about my blog :) I just use the blog for fadfada.
tahnk u dandoon for ur wishes and Inshallah akeed Allah dayman kateblna el 5air ..
I miss u too dandooneh :hug:
Oh come ooooon!! The copyrights of the closure thingy are so reserved for me!! Loved your post, ballashtee titla7la7i, and you're expressing yourself more freely which is good :)
If people knew what is best for them words like regret and experience will no longer exist. Our experiences make us what we are today, and I'm thankful for your experiences because you turned out to be great. It's stupid and naive to trust people automatically, not trusting people easily is a good thing, they have to prove that they're worthy of your trust first!
And I can totally relate to the mess part, there's nothing I would like more than to press pause and get away from everything and everyone right now, but life doesn't work like that, time doesn't stop, and you either throw everything behind you and start over or spend the rest of your life mourning what happened to you in the last couple of years.
Why do I talk so much?! Khalas bikaffeeki addaish ba3teeki mu7adarat in person and 3al telephone wil msn, la72eetek 3al blog! :D
Khouloud Lol enfat7at qaree7tek 3al 7aki. U r so right my friend we can't learn unless we go through hard experiences! but the thing is; does it has to b that hard? Allah be3een.. Thank u kouki for always being there for me :wardeh:
Hello Serendipity
Read your good words on trust. Here is a quotation from Ernest Hemingway on trust. For me, I shall fail a hundred times to find someone who is trustworthy. There is no other guaranteed way.
The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.
Ernest Hemingway
Salahuddin. USA
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sometimes ppl leave us lost for words coz they say bluntly in our face the exact things we try to push back to the end of our head..
most important closure u wud make use of is with urself. one sometimes needs to figure out lose ends in one's mind before expecting any external closure to em.. my theory: if u bottle up u blow up :D and u dowanna be weak and vulnerable coz of all the supressed emotions.. and then blowing up in very wrong times..
Bless :flowers:
Salah: Thank for passing :) and its true we have to keep trusting ppl and give them the chance to trust us! that's the only way to get along in our lives! Thank u for ur words :)
ProudPali: ur right, it has to be from the inside! coz no matter how hard we try to act that we r over things from the outside! since I wrote the post I worked on all that! and thank God its working out! thank u for passing by :)
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